During our first week in Colorado our very kind and gracious dinner hostesses blessed our new start in Colorado with a beautiful poem (a term loosely used in this case) by John O’ Donohue out of his book To Bless the Space Between Us:
For A New Beginning
In out-of-the-way places of the heart,
Where your thoughts never think to wander,
This beginning has been quietly forming,
Waiting until you were ready to emerge.
For a long time it has watched your desire,
Feeling the emptiness growing inside you,
Noticing how you willed yourself on,
Still unable to leave what you had outgrown.
It watched you play with the seduction of safety
And the gray promises that sameness whispered,
Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent,
Wondered would you always live like this.
Then the delight, when your courage kindled,
And out you stepped onto new ground,
Your eyes young again with energy and dream,
A path of plenitude opening before you.
Though your destination is not yet clear
You can trust the promise of this opening;
Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning
That is at one with your life’s desire.
Awaken your spirit to adventure;
Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk;
Soon you will be home in a new rhythm,
For your soul senses the world that awaits you.
It was an interesting experience for me growing up in a home that has always been “funny” about religion, but nonetheless it was an experience I enjoyed especially when considering the idea that O’ Donohue mentions in the introduction to his book that blessings evoke a sense of belonging not only between people, but also between us and the divine within us, around us, and above us, “a gracious invocation where the human heart pleads with the divine heart.” I have very often over the course of my life struggled with belonging, never truly feeling a part of anything. And that played a huge part in my decision to be a part of Colorado ESC.
Living in this intentional community and discovering my relationship with God and the divine, is definitely new ground for me. And yes the road ahead might be difficult , but it is a comforting thought to think about not only the blessings I have received in the last couple of weeks from the people I have met so far, but also from my boyfriend’s family, and my own family and friends.