The end of this service year is just one week away. This past month has been one of intense reflection and I have no idea how to put any of it into words.
Instead, I am posting a blessing we read during our first week orientation from John O’Donohue’s To Bless the Space Between Us. Finding this passage from the beginning of the year to re-experience has been helpful in my reflection. It’s amazing to recognize how different I am from one year ago, but how similar my situation is with a new beginning just around the corner. Comparing how I felt while reading the first blessing to how I feel while reading another blessing that is relevant to me now has been a great help as well. Further below is another blessing from O’Donohue’s book that I feel summarizes the work I want to continue once I’m away from the spiritual structure and support of this program.
For A New Beginning
In out-of-the-way places of the heart,
Where your thoughts never think to wander,
This beginning has been quietly forming,
Waiting until you were ready to emerge.
For a long time it has watched your desire,
Feeling the emptiness growing inside you,
Notice how you willed yourself on,
Still unable to leave what you had outgrown.
It watched you play with the seduction of safety,
And the gray promises that sameness whispered,
Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent,
Wondered would you always live like this.
Then the delight, when your courage kindled,
And out you stepped onto new ground,
Your eyes young again with energy and dream,
A path of plenitude opening before you.
Though your destination is not yet clear
You can trust the promise of this opening;
Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning
That is at one with your life’s desire.
Awaken your spirit to adventure;
Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk;
Soon you will be home in a new rhythm,
For your soul sense the world that awaits you.
Awaken to the mystery of being here
and enter the quiet immensity of your own presence.
Have joy and peace in the temple of your senses.
Receive encouragement when new frontiers beckon.
Respond to the call of your gift and the courage to
follow its path.
Let the flame of anger free you of all falsity.
May warmth of heart keep your presence aflame.
May anxiety never linger about you.
May your outer dignity mirror an inner dignity of
Take time to celebrate the quiet miracles that seek
Be consoled in the secret symmetry of your soul.
May you experience each day as a sacred gift woven
around the heart of wonder.
If you’d like to read more of O’Donohue’s blessings I highly suggest buying the book. If you want to really dive into understanding and living his blessings for a year with the support of some amazing people I highly suggest applying for Colorado Episcopal Service Corps. Really wanted to fit a little plug in!